Overthinkers unite

My name is Carla and I'm a constant overthinker!  

I am unable to make a decision about stupid things without spending hours thinking about it from every possible angle. 

Simple conversations are replayed by my brain at stupid o'clock in the morning wondering if I made myself understood, wondering if I made a fool of myself, wishing I'd said something else or wishing I'd not said anything at all. 

If I make a quick decision I spend days convincing myself I was right, then intermittently telling myself I was wrong. 

It's tiring, my brain takes over and ties itself in knots and stresses and worries about the stupid little details other people probably didn't even notice. 

I'm not as bad as I was. I used to not do or say things at all for fear of doing or saying the wrong things. 

It's taken years to learn to live with my brain and the one thing that's helped is to finally realise at the age of 43 that I'm actually a nice person and for the first time in my life I like myself. I used to worry far too much about what other people thought about me, spent far too much time and energy on it. 

My name is Carla, I'm funny, naughty, cheeky, caring and a loyal friend to those that treat me right. 

Boobs

It seemed appropriate that as I started this blog to use alongside Twitter and Periscope I should focus on the pic I've become known for on my Periscope profile. 

At least once a year strange statuses appear on Facebook, it soon becomes clear its a "game" supposed to spread cancer awareness. They piss me off. Cancer isn't a game, it shouldn't be whispered about and talked about in private messages. 

Anyway, last year I posted the text further down the page to my Facebook along with a close up of my boobs. I also put it on Twitter that I rarely used at the time. Roll on March and I downloaded Periscope unaware that it would use my Twitter profile pic and I'd be unable to change it!!  

So there you go, the reason why my boobs are on Periscope!  I have a different pic to the original one I used on Facebook though. 

"There seems to be another one of these stupid games going around again. The sort when girls put up stupid statuses then whisper amongst themselves in private messages and pass on another stupid comment and say it's for cancer awareness. BOLLOCKS!  

It's great to spread awareness and if it starts conversations that's good but if you want to raise awareness do it with purpose and talk openly about lumps and bumps and not just with female friends. 

HERE ARE MY BOOBS! I check my boobs, I encourage my friends to check theirs. Men can get breast cancer too and need to check their balls and everyone needs to check out strange lumps and bumps all over their bodies. 

EVERYONE CHECK THEIR BOOBS AND BALLS! You could always ask your partner or a willing friend to help".